Bringin' on babe

I feel so fat. Need to jian fei. Haha. Not happening when all i have been doing is sit in front of my desk and a) watch videos b) internet c) study! My gosh so no life >.<

But tmr is the last day! Hoho. Last day of Julie-wanna be- Tricia and fat unhealthy pig Tricia XD Gonna do so freaking badly for common tests but whatever. Its only common tests. 

I've been kinda cheery for some reason. Probably the distancing from my ole affected insecure self. I like learning this confidence again (: because you don't get hurt when you don't care. 

I wanna go shopping! And next week is 4/1's gathering dinner <3 I can't wait to see them again. Honestly i never cared about such gatherings cos people don't matter don't matter to me. But recently i have learnt to cherish the people around me. I hung out with Gen before assembly today, joined the we-temporarily-fail-math club XD, hung out with Victoria before and after papers because we take almost the same subjects...and i realize actually i do miss the 4/1 girls (: Thats why i made an effort to agree to the meeting! SzeChing was kinda surprised and it heartens me to see her eagerness..

Also I never really cared about people who walks in and out of my life - but its different now. I never thought i'd care about people from my LWS class but i miss a few of them in a way? I miss just fooling around in class, even though thats just about it. And i made an effort to get to know Xiao Ran better. She's like a sister figure to me and its really awesome (: She's real sweet and nice and sometimes similar. Sometimes i see myself in her thoughts...perhaps thats why i find it easy to approach her.

And people like Alvin, Soon and MLYJ, you guys are friends whom i really care about. Not because Alvin gives us free entries to Kallang :p but also cos he is an elder brother figure. Though he seems like he is from a different world from us, i believe real friendship surpasses all superficiality. I am friends with whom i feel are genuinely nice and do not piss me off all the time. And Soon because of his rantings of music and songs and instruments. Its kinda cool because he accepts whatever trash i feed him :p whether or not he likes it. ahahahaha. *BROKEN ROSE!!* Lastly, though MLYJ has already walked out of my life, i remember how we used to be able to click. Was kinda mean to him i guess but. It doesn't mean he didn't matter.

And most importantly, honey <3 Sometimes i just want to stab him to pieces and eat him up but he has changed a lot for me. He became more sensitive and self-sacrificing? Though sometimes i feel we're only about "habit" and being used to having each other around, i think its not exactly a bad thing. At least i know when i need you, you will be there for me ^^ He makes me laugh so <333 love!!

Sarah my favouritest girl in the whole wide world who is just too awesome. Met up quite a lot during the holidays and i like it. It feels so familiar once again. I can't wait to go shopping (yay!) and playing and cloud-bathing and bikini shopping and island exploring and camwhoring with this girl!! My best friend forever and ever and ever amen (:

I miss going to KBox. Let's go Sarakpok! Bring Gen along because she hasn't been there before :o

Today's a real bad day. I try to believe God has a plan but wth is it? Anyway. So i finally met Vicente to pass him his super delayed present (: I wanted to study while i wait for Qiang to end his tennis but his tennis did not happen, so i had to pack up and walk all the way to the bus stop to meet him - but he's not there. Bah. I was quite annoyed because firstly i just settled down and secondly my plan to chill at starbucks was thwarted and thirdly its just not very exciting to imagine a whiny unappreciative and not very happy him. But i guess he has all the right in the world to be angry at the weather...i would too i guess. So after much disagreement and much discontent, i went to meet him still. Since i was supposed to play "good girlfriend" aka "miss nice" i will put up with it till the very end (: it has been a pretty nice role to play except sometimes "miss princess" gets in the way and wants everything done her way. Okay so today was Miss Nice 1:0 Miss Princess. 

So he got on 169 and we went to his place for him to drop his stuff - which he did not cos Miss Nice agreed to play tennis with him. Hmm. Bad choice because i had and have such a huge problem with balls in general ever since i was hit by that darn soccerball right on the head in Pri 2. It was so bad i didn't even have to wait a second before tears poured out and i fell to the floor. From then on i became ballaphobic (or whatever you call it). So i knew i was being too ambitious and brave (and way too nice) when i agreed to playing tennis. I haven't even tried it in my life!!

So we went to OCC to have dinner (probably the best part of my whole of today) and headed to play pool. Pool is okay because the balls don't fly they just roll around happily. Yes. That i don't mind. Then it was doom's time >.< I could hit no balls and i know its not the correct method but really who gives when it actually goes across the effing net, like finally! I could not swing with one arm so i needed to use the strength of both arms. It was hell. Never a moment did i enjoy the game - it was too stressful trying to gauge the ball so i could a) attempt to hit it back b) attempt to even hit it c) reach it and d) protect myself from the ball. My self defence mechanism usually overfunctions in situations like these and thus its always d. I am just too too afraid of balls. Anyway i guess it started out fun because it was something new and i was actually not very worn out but slowly my determination wore off and my arm was aching like nuts. That took the fun factor out of tennis. It requires so much strength only buffaloes can play it. I admit im a weak female if you want to put it that way. I prefer graceful sports like figure skating where you don't run around catching balls like looneys. 

I guess at the end of the day i am a sore loser and i admit it. I don't like sports i am not good at. But its his sport - his favourite one i guess. So cos i am supposed to play Miss Nice, i will try to be better at it. Overcome the fear and pump my determination to the max. I'll try to be good at both skating and tennis - i try. Haha. Now i can laugh - i just couldn't just now when i was so crushed and defeated :( I need a coach :) someone really patient with a really really BIG heart who can really guide my arms (which don't go with my brains or eyes or legs) and teach me like a kid XD I need so much encouragement its unimagineable. Double bah. But no he is not not nice to me and he was rather encouraging.

So feeling dejected and super like some idiot, i took the shuttle bus back to NP with him. He didn't send me home so he took bus 169 home whilst tortured demented Tricia took the train home. It was so tough trying to carry everything on the left side while trying to balance out the weight with my right side. I sound like i am soliciting for charity XD But nah, its just a very genuine and frank expression of my thoughts and experience. Sigh. 

Tomorrow will be better (^.^)v 
Because i am going wake up early to do some work, then go for tuition like a good student, then study some more at NLB and maybe meet panda and kiwi for break and then meet Qiang for MORE GRUELING TENNIS SESSION at night. Think i'll relax a bit by swimming tomorrow and hmm oh i need to submit my skating form soon. Yep.
Tomorrow MUST be better (".)v  

Eeek. LJ just deleted my whole entry but no i will not give in. Hoho.

Met Sarah every day, almost, to practice in preparation for our big day. It all turned out pretty good, especially Wednesday because we had the entire rink to ourselves! Cos its after ice time, and we had a chance to experience an empty rink or we will "get a shock", says sarah. Which is true. I guess i would cos we are already so used to dodging the crowd. We shopped on Friday for our attire <33 Finally! It has been so long since i last went shopping because of the two most typical factors - no money no time. Bah. Kinda sad. But it feels awesome, finally, to be able to shop with someone who loves shopping as much. Love!

This is perhaps one of the most random post ever but life has been pretty cool (: 

Anyhow it started with having a lot of tests, of which usually don't deserve any positive emotions/comments. But this time it seemed different, i kinda felt like i tried my best (and genuinely for the first time), and i am still going to embrace the result, regardless the grade. The only test i felt was badly done was probably business, but i am relieved cos i know it is not because i have not studied enough, but rather the fact my time management is poor and could not finish the question. T'was a lesson learnt, at least (: Anyhow geog was pretty good for last minute mugging. And English was just kind of ... lucky? I don't know, i just felt good about it, though that doesn't warrant a good outcome. But at least i felt good about it - the present is all that matters. Then there's Maths and Physics which of course i am going to try hard for, but my confidence level just kinda dwindled to the valley cos its just so impossibly tough T__T

Before i start sounding like a *ahem* we-know-who, the next happy thing is Sarah's birthday <33 Omg it was so awesome because i finally got her the BIG balloon! I was pretty damn proud of it, and Gen and Lucy chipped in because they thought it was a great idea! And Gen was so sweet she sent me the stuff for the other present, which is taking its own sweet time at its home and pissing me off now. T__T super unreliable item. But anyhow, it will come soon! Gen and i thought the girl'll love it so thanks Gen <33 
We went to Swensen's to get Sarah her firehouse happy birthday! And we just sat and bonded over food and water <3 it felt so relaxed and awesome. I really love them girls cos they are just SO genuine and dependable, 24/7.

Today i went over to Qiang's at first to head out to eat fried wanton but that lazy boy ended up playing GTA and watching comedy night replay and soccer highlights. His Mum made Mwa Chee <33 how awesome you know! I was helping out and his mum is too nice to be true XD And i planned something for something special, and yes i am pretty damn proud of this too. 

And finally Sarah and i headed a skating interest group, like finally darlings! I have no idea why for, but take it as interest and charity to those who need CAS. I am pretty excited to teach them and omg the most surprising thing is that the turnout rate was beyond what we expected. How we gonna teach 20 people at one go? Hola. *pats Sarah and Tricia on the back for being so ambitiious* I hope everything works out well. 

YAY <3